nothing.

it’s my only day off this week and i am doing

nothing.

i had such an amazing night - i felt invincible.

now it’s the next morning and i just feel deflated.

truly, i’m disappointed i have my summer seminar tomorrow and the next day at Albany when i have been excited about it for awhile because i know my thoughts will be clouded with her when i should be confident the way i usually am when i’m not sitting in my room watching grey’s anatomy all morning. plus i know going to albany will make tomorrow and the next day the longest days of my life since it will be the bridge of when i can see her again.

i am just going to get up and hangout with my friends.

the state of mind i’m in right now isn’t even me in the slightest. i don’t care about her that much.