about kissing you

and how if i tried to do what callie did when she kissed erica

you would turn your head - you wouldn’t cup my face and kiss back

but i want to kiss you and it’s awful.

so i will ignore you?

is that immature, wrong, cruel, self-serving or smart - because you want to be friends?

but - shouldn’t it be about me?

when should it be about her and when should it be about me?

if it’s always about me is that immature, wrong, or cruel?

or is it smart?

i embarrass myself.