it’s crazy.

so two weeks ago i told her the ways in which i adore her and the confident woman turned into a scared little girl. i know she just wants to be friends and that’s fine.

we spend every single night together. it’s wonderful. it scares me too. but when we stay up until four in the morning and see each other at work after waking up next to one another at 9:30am an hour and a half later - you look at me with your INCREDIBLE hair laying impossibly thick, giants jersey, $5 sunglasses, the same blue sweat pants you wore the night before and with that perfect laugh you ask me whether or not i’m too tired to spend the night with you again.

but when i tried to kiss you - you said you couldn’t.

honestly, you are so out of my league and i didn’t recognize that at first because of my own ego. but you blow me away. it’s as if you have everything - the carelessness without the lethargy, the self confidence without the inflated ego, the insane drunken nights at a club without an inch of promiscuity, the intelligence without the snobbery. hundreds of people absolutely adore you just because you are related to them, your family is incredible, you’re lucky. you are always honest, you love yourself, you’re emotionally stable, you’re hilarious, you’re incredibly beautiful and your gpa is 3.9. how you don’t put yourself on a pedestal astounds me.